one week until

i'm off to more than two weeks of vacation in my parent's native country of dominican republic. I have not been there since I was 4. and that was the last time i rode on a plane. I am excited and a little jittery about it, about going to another place, about getting away, about seeing nice things. We'll be visiting family for some days and enjoying some beautiful resorts during others. I'm preparing for tons of photos with both my film and digital camera.

I still have many little things i need before everything is set suitcase-wise. most of it is attire or sunscreen. i also need a new lithium battery. and hairclips that can hold up my hair in the heat nicely. i have to remember all of the little things and get them.

i finally finished the book "mysterious skin". it was very good. I don't have to say much other than that about it. scott heim is very good.

im waiting for my amazon purchase of two new books im interested in.

venus and I spent some time together last night. had some good saddening, scary reality talks about our pretty-near futures. she has been my good, true friend for very long. i dont think i ever had as good and real a friend as her before her.

today's friday. i'll be watching the dark knight and having some fun in the city with ivan.

i dont know what i want for breakfast. i love eggs. so i'll probably eat eggs.

I've been having

great days.

the air conditioner has been fixed, somewhat, at work. 10-15 degrees cooler. That makes it much much more pleasant to pass 10 hours there. and it makes me happy.

I've been spending time with people, doing different little things, having good times. I've been spending some recent days with Svetlana. It's been nice. I had missed her. The fourth of july we ate grilled food in the yard and played scrabble. it sytarted raining hard and we stayed under the umbrellas attatched to the round tables. but then it started raining too hard and we went in.

today was great. venus, svetlana, and I had ourselves a nice picnic in the park on a blanket in some shade. The whole afternoon was a real good time. a really tiring, exhausting, hot good time.

i'm off to do some stuff.

its so hot

at my job.

the heat in that little restaurant is overbearing, and my required attire only makes is much worse. The owner seems to refuse to "fix" or change the 13-year-old central air conditioning system. I avoid complaining but yesterday, I could not take it any longer, and was in a bad mood about it, complaining on about how unfair it is that we already earn minimun restaurant wage and we are expected to act extremely happy and kind and functional, and on top of it all, have to also bear with really messed up work conditions. I'll stop complaining.

outside of that place, the weather is wonderful. yesterday after the rain, walking to the train, the fresh crisp warm air was wonderful.

i am listening to a favored song by regina spector, just her words and voice acapella that give me so much feeling. "i want to sing".

gonna make some invitations i need to make.

gonna try to make something out of this day.

things are changing, and roughening, and toughening. not necesarrily in a bad way, just a different, unknown-before, kind of scary way. i feel it inside.

the other day

i went to six flags.

with my friend venus and her brother luna.

i had alot of fun and got very burned shoulders and was so, so tired by 7 o clock.








i really liked this lamp.















i really enjoyed myself and went on practically everything because it wasnt a very busy day. I hadnt really done anything like that with venus and it was great to go with her. i like this summer. and will keep on doing some more things to enjoy it fully before the new school year starts and i begin my sophomore year.

for father's day

my family went out to get ice cream in the afternoon.

i came home tired from work. I showered and put on a nice silk blouse. I had mint chip ice cream. so did my dad. I love that flavor. more and more each time. thank ivan, for introducing me to it's greatness.

work again. leaving in 15 minuites or so. I love the weather these days. I say i hate it and scoff at how hot and stuffy it makes me feel at work sometimes but i secretly adore it. and these random strong showers of rain have been refreshing and made the weather much nicer.

many busy art-making days will be flooding me soon.

here comes a new day. have a good one, guys.

it is now time

for me to really start.

creating-wise that is.
because idea-wise, urge-wise, feel-wise, eager-wise, emotionally-wise, It has all been already going on.

but like ivan yesterday said, and i sometimes tell myself,

It does not matter if a person's really great and has great things in their head, it only matters once it actually comes out and exists and shows itself.

i have been inspired. for some time. the many things will show themselves.